Saturday, 27 July 2013


Salam ramadan.. ;)
Well today agak busy helping my mum. However still have my own time while working. So I use it by stalking on my own fb. Haha

I used to get involved in this social network when I was in form 2 in the year of 2009. Early 2009 which then Facebook or fb became famous n popular among people all around the world. Yeah I admit that I had addicted to it long time ago. I cannot live my day without online on fb.
I would stand for hours, online and keep on chatting with my new friends! Omaigadd.. teruknyer xp 

Then starting from 2011, slowly Im getting bored with fb. I moved to my twitter. But still I keep on chatting if I got nothing to do at home. Till now I didn't delete all the chats in my inbox.
So what did I do today was reading all the conversation I have made. From the bottom till the latest. As I could see, there's my friend whom deactivate their account. And yes, I don't remember who are they! Even who are still active. I don't know how and when Im started to know them all. I just forgot and I dislike it. Yeah, the way I talked, I wrote shows that Im still a "kanak-kanak riang" who doesn't matured yet. =="

Despite all old conversation, I found my old self there. I am so friendly, so easy to close to. I try to remember who I just forgot by read all the conversation we made but I failed. I just cannot accept the fact that I know them. How I hate that. Today, I found myself different. Since I didn't update the fb I don't know how to delete all the messages in my inbox. I feel that I've changed. Much better to be who am I now.

The point is being so kind will just kill you in fact that the people who you cares about break your trust. I wont be like that again. I wont be hurt by my kindness. Its really painful. I learn my mistakes. I wont do it again.. actually that was the old me which I found by reading all the conversation that I've made.

Sometimes its good for us to be more selective. Yes we have to be selfish at a time. But just don't too much. Then you wont be hurt. Right?


Thursday, 18 July 2013

Meet the crush

Hello readers..

Guess what ?? I met the guy who had a crush on me today at the bazaar ramadan !
Yeah..been so long didn't met each other. He wore the same shirt n cap too. But I didn't say anything even a "hi" to him. I didn't noticed him that time. Sorry crush. ;)

And...yes Im too shy to to talk to. After 4 months I didn't see him then I suddenly met him and I'm just shocked. Sorry bro. I don't even know if you still likes me. 

So..insyaAllah for the next time, I will say hi to him. If I want to lar. Hehe...

Xoxo !

Friday, 12 July 2013

The Song

Have you listen to the song of Sudirman Milik Siapakah Gadis Ini ?
as I remember the lyrics says,

Lama telah ku impikan
Gadis sepertinya
Mengisi taman hati
Dengan cahaya kasih suci
Milik siapakah gadis ini..

I've listen to this song so many times. Sometimes it's render me bored. Haha.
Well actually I have a story behind this song. When the song played anywhere, it'll remind me something. It's about crush. I don't have crush to someone but the "someone" is actually who had a crush on me. •﹏•

When I was working at my mom's food stall, I met someone who worked as a waiter near to the food stall. I don't even know what age is he. He had a chinese look but he is a muslim. He's white, just same hight with me, shy person, wore a cap everyday. His name is... well let it be my secret. Hehe.
I never knew he's actually likes me until one day, there's a employee there who had told me the truth. That's why I felt strange when he often said to me "terima kah kasih?" As I think it was a joke but it's not.

When I was there, the song of Milik Siapakah Gadis Ini were played everyday. I don't expect the song was played by him. I think it was from a radio. Sometimes I think, is the radio like to play the song? Doesn't he/ she (the deejay) getting bored play it everyday? But.. since it was like a temporary file in my mind so I do not care bout it.

And yes, I will listen to the song everyday. Until one day, the man who had crush on me left and quit his job there, I didn't hear the song again. I wonder how come it stop so suddenly? Then when I was at his work place, I asked the kakak there n she told me that the song is actually played by him n not the radio. Andd,,, the point is , the song is played for me !! The girl meant in the lyrics is me ! I was so surprised.

Since he quit, I never heard that song everyday again. I just don't get it why is he hiding me the truth? Why don't he just let it go? Even though I'll never accept him but .. hmm... never mind.. I just don't like to be the last to know..
That's the story. The end. Hehe

Did I miss the moment ? Yes. My answer is yes. I miss him too. Well as my good friend. Just a good friend.


Tuesday, 2 July 2013

Safety on July

Hi all.. 
Happy july to all of you. May this month led us to be more mature and safe.

Actually Im still in a shocked because of the death of my friend. Well, ajal maut di tangan Allah kan? But yes, of course we still have to be more alert on what happen nowadays and be more careful.
My late friend had died in an accident at shah alam. I didn't know her well but I do know her because we did met in a camping last few years ago. The accident was so terrible. The car was almost crack !! Bumbung pun takda, stereng pun tercabut. Sangat teruk!

And few days after the bad news I'd received bout my late friend, my mom told me that my sister's brother-in-law was dead in an accident too ! It happened in the middle of night. He had left his beloved wife with 1 year-old son. The accident was also tragic where the fortuner he drove collided the divider with kancil at batu arang. Yes Im shocked about it too.

And...thats the reason I still don't get my own driving license today !! Money is not the matter at all. Its all about safety !! I did ask my mom and she gave me the same answer as my father. So, if I wanna go out, my parent will send me off and pick me up or I'll go by a car with my trusted best friend (who got the license earlier).

So, to all of you (teenager of course!) who had a driving license, please be more careful when you decide to drive on your own. Yes malang tidak berbau kan? So, do alert on signals, signs, the cars (engine or whatever), and the weather too! Drive safely. No need to drive as fast as you can cause jalanraya is not the place to you to show your championship -.-'. Slowly drive, don't rush. Biar lambat asal selamat, ok ?